Thursday, November 4, 2010
You Belong To Me
Saturday, September 25, 2010
A Rare Stroke Of Compassion
I was lost in my world when I first saw him; lost in my world of people who probably don't and will never care for me. Why he lay on the pavement dirty and with scanty clothing, is obvious. He was among those less endowed individuals scraping a half-life, grossly below the poverty line. Sustained and nourished in a well-walled home with a protecting parental environment encasing me like an oyster shell , I never looked at him for more than a few passing instances when I would glance at him obliquely, through the nooks of peripheral vision. I would walk on, perhaps lost in the harmonies of my own happy thoughts or the burning tips of my cigarette; so insensitive.
Today, however, although ensnared by all these selfish and 'intellectual' distractions, I did look at him for longer time than my heart warranted. Even though I was wont to carry on my travel homeward I felt a strange, almost painful, guilt, that I had suppressed forcibly earlier. I noticed him, due to the sole fact that he was asleep and not begging with upturned palms. Shamefacedly, I admit to myself that in my laziness, I would shirk the duty of presenting coin to him, if he did beg.
It was then that I thought. I thought of his hard pavement bed, and his level, concrete pillow; his blanket in filth and tatters encompassing his nudity. I suppressed a shudder. I considered a possibility of his being a mathematician or a research scientist for particle physics, under proper educational financial circumstances. Perhaps his mental abilities were better than his financial ones. Hence, for a moment my mind was engrossed in the What-if lane. But then i shook myself from useless musings, and back to his urban reality of perpetual hunger. That man had no work-place and no home apart that public seclusion that the pavement corner was to him. Simply speaking, he had nowhere to go, and successively no place to escape to. The pavement was the known devil to him; a cold constancy.
"He must be employing his mind in something," I thought, and my little insight led me to form a rough sketch of his occupation in my mind. As he potentially might be intelligent man, unexposed to the physical comforts and mental pursuits of this world. For him, I realised the world might as well be flat. No rivers need exist for his sustenance although groundwater supply may be a part of his consciousness. What, then does mean anything to him, since all he does is sit at the busiest spots near our university and beg?
I jumbled my mind for a probable answer and found one. The most significant part of his daily attention would constitute people. People from various parts of the city on their way to the various other parts of the same city or different ones, his observances and specialisation would entail mainly their natures with respect to him. For instance, how would a woman with permed hair and gauzy dress, leaning on the arm of a man, with hair set in the popular trend of the time, whom she has attracted with her beauty and charms, react to his obvious pleas for a negligible part of purse? This answer he would give as well as any in a situation similar to his. He would probably tell you about the nostrils of her upturned nose. He would also tell you about the more conscientious individuals who may give him meagre help one day and inform him of their lack of change the other. On some hot summer days they may fail him as they race back home or toward some shelter, unconscious of his unsheltered empty stomach.
In my understanding, then and his apparent relation to the unfriendly world around him, his work for sustenance would be a detailed study of the general attitudes of the average masses, that use his roadside place for repose and alertness alike, as their sidewalk, which, actually, it is.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
A Toddler's Tales of Toddler Days
Those concrete lanes of concrete truth,
I feel the present slip away,
And though requested refuses to stay.
I wake recalling songs I adore,
That splash about daily upon the floors,
Of my teeming memories abrimful,
With nostalgia, innocent and sinful.
I remember my toddler plays,
Around the house with cups and trays.
I remember those lullabys,
Sung to me with sleepy sighs.
They fiddled with my senses young,
Mingling with many words unsung.
I remember the cityscape,
And my desperation to escape,
To places where the sky is seen,
A stretching dome or a canvass screen;
Where trees do russle to the passing air,
And mutter words to the flowers fair;
Where the gnarling binds itself,
To make a home for a crazy elf.
I remember picking some scarlet seeds;
Of some stately tree or wild weeds,
To necklace my throat and my little wrists,
And to hold the rest in my tiny fists.
I remember trying to match my wits,
And winning at times in snatches and bits,
Against an elder who with a grin,
Would ten mellow and let me win.
I remember those childhood days,
Of simple dreams and simple ways.
Is there no path or hidden alley,
That would walk me back to that valley,
Where life was healthy and tinted pink,
And happiest ever or so think.
THE HOME SONG OF THE EARTH WALKER
Until the sands do meet the eye,
Until music fill the desert sky,
And widows smile on the sly.
Let us hear the marching tune,
That stirs the dust upon the dunes,
And air we breathe is with gold hewn,
Smelling of the carcass of ancient runes.
Lets paint the world with a riders colours,
And grace the time with lores of tellers,
Inquiring the lives of wine dwellers,
Who fell their feet upon stony cellars.
Let us go in fresh pursuit,
Of God's grace and fortitude,
Of lively lyres and tunes of flutes,
Of rich cuisines; the mouthfull foods.
Let us reach the world's end,
Where the mountain water bends,
And to heavens the fallers send,
When their ways are all amend.
Yet let us return to homely abode,
To where at end every traveller rode,
To lay down the needed but heaving load,
And rest each limb, sinew, muscle and node.
The King's Concern
Rang around the circling;
A sad chill in the ring,
Telling of disasters emerging.
The rooted nobles, a quartet,
The wisest in the islet,
Throbbng to the core did wait,
Pulsing the news of the state.
"War!" said he, that doth stir,
The kingdom in a bloody blur,
"The enemy marches at length afar,
Pray thee now to thy lucky star."
The lashes of the nobles' eyes,
Tear up to the brows up high,
The army unprepared to die,
What good do twinklers in the sky?
Flashing thoughts of blasphemy,
Like simmers of golden alchemy
"Die we all, sire!" exclaimed he,
A noble in evident agony.
"Our king, our lives, are under attack,
Weakness shall now be severly racked,
For this King of State has heavily lacked,
In the grim reality of foreign attack.
Then silence adorned the courtly hall,
The king's concern bourn by all,
The Majesty's death, the naton's fall,
The end was near, the end of all.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Plastic Coated Reality
Needing a Christmas, getting pain.
Looked upon with disdain,
Her eyes she raised with a tear-drop stain.
Hunger, greed and French fries,
Reasons why a man dies.
Yet all somehow satisfies,
The worldly rule of the game of dice.
She still walks in the fading day,
Hunting for her hunger along the way;
While men rub their bellies and say,
"Who's the chef by the way?"
And I, in my country dress,
Am no child of excess.
I scrounge around for caress,
From hands that either love or bless.
Drummer boys with joysticks,
Pick up women sharp at six,
To feed them coloured whiskey mix,
And get them down to their heady tricks.
I look upon those fun and games,
To laugh within my skinny frame,
At those giggling dames,
Whom the cunning Jackie tames.
Know they not the deprived souls,
How the little script unrolls;
How the silent starting bell tolls,
And achieves the cunning Jackie's goals?
Wise men on paved cracks,
Smoke and snort some foul smack,
Talking before the turned backs,
Of hunched beggars and lumberjacks.
They talk of things they do not know,
Like starvation and breaking snow,
As precious moments come and go,
Which away they knowingly throw.
A palmist in the black bandanna,
Who goes by the name Susanna,
Bites a nice big banana,
And looks for her Santana.
She would dance to his guitar gig,
Grasping at her falling wig,
And taking a long drunkards swig,
From his jar of juice so big.
I join her in her charade,
And a smile we shyly trade,
Then sit and discuss about the books of Sade,
And other matters the law forbade.
The mistress and her doctor sad,
Talk about his young lad,
And how the kid turned bad,
On seeing the two unclad.
Although they may try their hand,
To make the laddie understand,
That what he saw was nothing grand;
Just a trip to wonderland.
The doctor's wife sings and bakes,
Four and twenty cupcakes.
She'll serve them when her husband wakes,
With cold tea and milkshakes.
Little does her silliness know,
Where her husband comes and goes.
She's happy with her flour and dough,
And shooing off the irksome crows.
I cheer them all as they play,
their masquerades night and day.
Unknowingly they give away,
That they never mean what they say.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
the fish, the bull and the devastation
untied and untried like a new bride in moonlight,
to beat with the heat without retreat, for long,
a sharp axe, a climax, when the wood cracks, in a song,
peckers with backbreakers, mow with rakers the soft grass,
till all's over, under the cover, and smiles sober. glass,
with a glisten, tinkles so we listen. when we are risen, with time,
broken walled, and dissolved, dearly involved in the crime.
eyes gazed, and heads dazed, but spirits unphased, clambering
somewhere along, the girating song, too long, hurrying,
back there, that spot where we were, in the clouded layers, sprung,
a passion strange, an heady exchange, within the range that had begun.
limits though touched, were sadly unreached, as faces bleached in sweat,
a strong old bull, though met with a pull, kept his rule, all wet,
over the current, where the fish is sent, all spent up the vent,
All hail, the gush and the gale, for all creatures wail, all spent.
Monday, April 26, 2010
dylan on the breeze
For her I feel so afraid
On her twenty-second birthday
She already is an old maid
To her, death is quite romantic
She wears an iron vest
Her profession's her religion
Her sin is her lifelessness
And though her eyes are fixed upon
Noah's great rainbow
She spends her time peeking
Into Desolation Row."
the kid ship
Sunday, April 25, 2010
A Sea Kiss
Old eyes ashine
The setting sun
The lout's lay
Death of Hayden
akin humility
ravished by merciless men.
the tumble however
she greeted overjoyed
as she charred among the ashes.
with her name afame
she flew to him
to serve his draining gashes.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Moon-kissed suitor
Wet with kinder dew drops,
Monday, March 8, 2010
The French Queen
There they were,
The Ship of Captain Joe
Skipped down a laughing river,
Born from the glassy glaciers,
Winding along in fervour.
Flowing in lazy languor,
Along the peasant's plain,
She drowns into the sea,
Quenching its lusty pain.
In this very sea,
which washes clean the shore,
Sails the black barked devil,
The ship of captain Joe.
Born along the sea coast,
On an island of crags,
With plank on plank was she built,
By unfed men in rags.
A sailors delight,
And a shipman's pride,
The bony virgin,
Touched the tide.
Fluttering her mast,
Pretty and quaint.
They named her Mary,
And used pinkly used paint.
She sailed for her masters,
Elegant and coy,
Spreading happiness,
And sunlit joy.
Smiles she made,
On faces of friends,
But unhappy was she,
At every day's end.
She was meant for greatness,
She felt and knew,
Not wasting away,
With a scanty crew.
So she waited,
And bid her days,
Until one night,
She got her way.
On the silent nightly trip,
Tame and sickeningly slow,
She heard a mighty roar.
And her sides felt a sword.
And she was captured away,
From her lazy coast,
Into the wild sea,
Alive as a ghost.
The man on the deck,
With his crew,
Cruised her to the sea,
Where she belonged she knew.
Captain Joe was his name,
Who had seized her bark,
A pirate much feared,
By day and by dark.
He stroked his new beauty,
Very tenderly,
Soon the pink was off her back,
And her name was Crysallie.
Many a shore she touched,
On Captain Joe's command,
Many a sea she kissed,
'Neath her captain's hand.
She was laden with treasures,
From time to time.
She was often bejeweled,
By her captain's crimes.
She fought his wars,
On the chaffing sea.
She never drowned,
So strong was she.
She made an oath,
Never to leave,
Her captain's side,
Till the time of Eve.
For long and together,
Did her captain and she.
Sail the oceans,
and reign the seas.
But in this nasty world,
Do joy and sorrow,
Painfully wreak the heart,
As they each other follow.
One day, when the sun rose,
Surrounded they were, she saw,
By warships and the navy,
As ordered by the law.
Captain Joe, her love,
Was ripped from her back,
His hands were behind him,
And his head in a sack.
They walked him to the gallows,
To kill him she knew,
Right before her eyes,
And his faithful crew.
From the strong structure,
He did hang.
Roaring songs of joy,
The 'righteous' people sang.
She was put away then,
Where none would ever go.
Her back ached in misery,
And her planks missed her Joe.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Contempt for the Contemporary.
Living a wasted legacy, of pretentious ecstasy.
Blandness of memory, bordering on mediocrity,
Surrendering harmony, bound in affected poesy.
Favouring grandeur over brilliance, blind to kindred innocence,
Grimly face their hindrance, that meet them at every entrance.
Mulling in warm water, their lives they wish to alter.
In meadows they wish to saunter; in gardens they wish to loiter.
Martyring these desires, they are worldly liars,
They run on rubber tires, but dream of wild fires.
Within the grips of destiny, which they call priority,
And treat with severity, toiling for eternity.
Forging dreams and ambitions, they leave behind the formation,
Of the silent assumptions, made with pluck and gumption.
Assumptions romanticized, rose-tinted and hypnotized,
Dreamily paralyzed and personalized.
They think that they know of words of long ago,
Vainly try to show they’re fast when they’re slow.
Fast is not the speed, at which they want to breed,
Planting worthless seed, of fake religious creed.
Life’s steady impermanence, it is meager tolerance,
Of people of no consequence, brimming with insolence.
At long last they understand, the pointlessness of work in hand,
How they regret those grains of sand, which coyly left their hand.
Monday, February 8, 2010
At the back of my head
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Tiny details here and there
Zeroing in on the little details of life, I find silent words, sounds, music, scenes, colours, scents and dreams that go largely unnoticed; ignored into oblivion. I have the choice of either noticing them or leaving them virgin and unexplored. I choose to wander into these slight territories of secrecy.
Images spark and I see their intricate woodworks chiseled delicately into their place. The beauty of anything beautiful ever seen is that it is studded with tender details like, the sheen on a statue, the glitter on a diamond and the fire in sunshine.
I can recall once having absorbed a particularly cherished detail. While inhaling the sweetness of a flower; I forget which; I happened to accidentally notice a tiny droplet of nectar clinging to the base of the flower. I happily licked it and tasted it on a minute area on my tongue. It still had flavour; in spite of the minuscule amount.
Some of the things that we leave behind are just some stone unturned. Something missed due to carelessness or hurry. Pity plays its naughty game on me when I find people missing the intricacies in life. How these individuals do in life without the small flourish of detail, I fail to comprehend.
Something tells me, however, that the ones who are meant to see, do see and enjoy. Their pores are receptive to the most undetectable of all sensations. They detect the most hidden of all visions, melodies, fragrances, tastes and touches. They feel the touch of heaven in bright snow. They feel the peace in the notes of a violin. Most of all, however, they feel themselves particle by particle and, thus are in completely harmony with themselves. J
Friday, February 5, 2010
Waves Of Sorrow
I burnt me,
Kolkata
Cracked pavements,
With etched dreams,
Yellow leaves lying,
Scattered on them;
A typical Kolkata.
Kolkata...
A city of times,
When it was not it’s own,
Of times when it was trampled,
A city through which,
The hot fluids,
Of revolution rushed.
A city,
Of times hungered,
And pained.
A city…
Which is touched with,
Numerous intellects,
Far superior than ever imagined.
A city…
A haven for the birth
Of those men
Who had hot blood
And warm hearts.
A city of tram bells,
And rickshaws,
Drawn over cobbled roads.
A city which sleeps.
A city languid,
Yet vital,
And invigorated.
A city…
Which believes,
In the power,
Of the pen,
Yet unfalteringly hoists,
The weapons of war,
On nation’s call.
A city…
Of ancient,
And untouched,
Inheritance,
Relics of the past,
Colonial and native.
Wild minds,
Molded and carved,
Into rebellion,
Of a kind.
A city…
Of vermillion women,
Who leave ruddy,
Footprints along the paths.
Women with doe eyes,
And rose petal lips.
A city…
Of early morning birds,
Of sleepy visions.
A city…
Of sanguine life…
Of fond hearts…
Of love.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
The Ageless Tryst
There slept a crystal sea,
Dipped down beyond the frowning rocks,
Into the earthy concave of water.
Swimming with fragrant sea waves,
And flashing on the sand.
Droning to the mountains,
The mountains, her lover,
Speaking words of comfort,
And whispering melody.
She closes her eyes, to sweep back,
To find unbound lores,
From her silent depths.
Then she comes surging back,
With talking songs to unfurl.
In return for her favour,
The mountains, the mighty lord,
To his beloved speaks,
Of his gentle sages,
And their worshipped wisdom.
Sighing upon her fluidity,
He breathes her vapours in,
Bringing her to his dense self,
As she laced him with her ice.
The winking silver peaks,
Laid bare below the sun,
To bask in its glory,
Glimmering with little sparks of fire.
His steep solemnity pays homage,
To the blazing sphere of life,
Offering his icy jewels,
For heaven’s kind acceptance,
Of his lady ether.
From there she drizzles and storms,
In rage ‘cause of her distance from her lover.
She rains into her pristine domain the sea,
Flowing into the calm stretches beyond.
From the seven heavens she brings,
Tales of serenity and peace.
Spreads them along her way meant for the,
Viscous search for her beloved,
To inform him of her flighty adventures.
In peace, wisdom and serenity,
They survive the time.
They chant youthfully of their years,
On earth spent in beauty.
Of anger, rage and sorrow neither spoke,
Nor leave any tell-tale imprints, did they.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Children of greater and lesser Gods
Incense of blades of grass,
Me
- Subrosa
- India
- I slip, I fall, I bruise, I look up and I rise...........then I let my legs move.......they carry me away.